DIARY OF A ONE BAD GIRL

We used to hang out outside a DUNKIN' DONUTS store.  Then one time, me and my friend "Van" decided to have a snack there.  Upon ordering, we noticed this new handsome guy working at the counter.  His nameplate says "ERWIN".  He must have noticed that we were checking him out so he flashed his dimples when taking our order.  I forgot how we manage to befriend him.  I think it was because of a napkin.  I think "Van" wrote something on the napkin.  The next thing I remember, we were hanging out together.  We became mag "MU".  We would hang out at the mall and we were able to watch a movie one time.  We just held hands.  Nothing more.  But I got bored with him.  He's handsome but he is boring.  He is so serious.  I can't even remember we laughed together about something.  People would really think we were going steady.  But we were really just friends.  I was 14 then.  After a few months, we grew apart.  I was avoiding him and his contract with DUNKIN' DONUTS expired.  Then I never heard from him again.  Surprisingly, he still remembers me.  We saw each other at SM last year and he called me.  But I just say hi because I was in a hurry.  He still looks good but the attraction was not there anymore.


 P.S.  Some names have been changed to protect the parties. 

This guy was my college classmate in one of my subject.  We were seatmates and he would sometimes borrow my notes.  I guess that started it.  I was going steady with someone else at that time. I still entertained him but only as a friend.  Nothing more serious.  He would call me up at night and we would talk for hours.  He has a sense of humor and that is my weakness.  One day, he went to our house and gave me a cute little bunny stuff toy.  We were living on opposite side of the city so I find his gesture sweet.  Then one night, our conversation went into something intimate.  He said he never been inside a motel.  I also told him I never been to one either.  But that was a lie.  I was no longer  a virgin since 16.  So I pretended I am still one.  But eventually, he told me he already had an experience and I also told him about mine.  After that conversation, we agreed to go to a motel after class.  He was kinda excited when he picked me up at home.  He was thinking something will happen.  When we were inside the motel room, we played "TONG ITS" and the loser will strip off part of his/her clothing.  He ended up taking his shirt off and he was thinking I would take mine off, too.  But I didn't.  I just showed him my belly button piercing and he was intrigued.  Nothing really happened.  Or I think we kissed.  But not french kiss.  Just a quick smack.  He was such a gentleman.  That was our little secret.  When we see each other in class, we exchange this certain look and we only both know what that means.

His attraction to me was not a secret because some of our classmates will notice the extra attention he's giving me but he knows we can only be friends.  And we still are up to now.  He is in my friendster account.       

I really don't know why most of my crushes starts with letter J. Anyways, here's another one of them.  I was in high school and he was a college student.  I saw him at a skating rink with some friends and I can't take him off my mind.  I started asking and that's how I got his name.  But the annoying thing is, he likes my friend "JANICE".  She is pretty but she has a bad reputation.  I was really wondering why guys like bad girls.  They got steady but only for a while.  After that, I started scanning the telephone directory and tried to call everyone on the list with his family name.  That's how desperate I was.  And when I finally got the right number, I started calling him about every other day.  How pathetic!  First, I would use other names but I finally introduced myself.  I told him I just want him to be my friend.  And you know what?  I can't remember any conversation we had.  I also got his photo.  I am so resourceful, ain't I?  I admit I use to chase guys but not to become their girlfriend.  I am already contented if we became friends and the feelings I had for them will eventually disappear.

Let's call him ROLLERBOY.  He's from Manila and so tisoy.  He is small but his sex appeal is so huge.  Every girl who sees him falls in love with him and that includes me.  He was like my ultimate crush and dream boy.  We hang out with the same group but we don't have the chance to hang out with each other.  Then I would get so kilig everytime I see him  around.  There was one time that we ride in one car but he was with a date so I was invisible to him.  I can't remember how I got his photo but I was able to have one and I always carry it in my wallet.  I don't know where he is right now or how he is doing.  All I know is that he likes flirty girls.  Most of his girlfriends were known FLIRTS!  Maybe he didn't notice me before because I was still young and not that sophisticated unlike the girls he dated.  I was just like "one of the boys" and the baby of the group.  I was 12 years old at that time.

This boy was my childhood neighbor.  I think I was still 5 or 6 years old when I noticed how cute he is.  Actually, he was my first crush.  He was dark and has chinky eyes.  When I was a little girl, I was really not pretty and people don't notice me.  But there are still some boys who will appreciate my beauty.  But S.J. was not one of them.  He likes my friend more.  No matter how many times I will intentionally passed by their house so that he would look at me, I was still like a wind to him:  invisible.  That did not help my self esteem.  I always feel I am ugly because the only boy I like doesn't even know I exist!  But when we were 8 years old, they transferred and I never heard from him since then.  I don't even know what he looks like now.  I even forgot what S.J. means!!!  If he sees me now, he will really regret the day he ignore me.

I forgot his real name so I am just using his nickname.  He was our neighbor.  Our house is just right infront of their house.  We also go to the same school.  I think I was in grade 5 when I met him.  We would talk in their jeepney about school and other stuffs.  Then one night, he just grabbed my hand.  I was stunned.  I couldn't move and I couldn't say a word.  Then he said, "I love you".  After that incident, I tried to avoid him.  I also like him but I hate guys taking advantage of me.  So after how many weeks of avoiding him, he gave me a letter telling me he was sorry and that he still loves me.  Our school is just a walking distance so sometimes he would try to wait for me on a nearby church and I don't have any choice but to walk with him.  But I would not say a word.  I would just nod or look away when he is trying to talk to me.  I think it took me a few more months before I finally decided to forgive him.  But I don't like him anymore.  And the next thing I new, he is courting a new girl in school.  End of story.

This is my very first post in this blog and I would just like to give an overview of what you should expect here.  I will be posting mainly about the boys in my life, past and present.  I will introduce them one by one.  So feel free to check this blog from time to time to know them. 

I am not a play girl but I have a lot of admirers.  I am not a really bad girl but I have my fair share of misdeeds and wrong doings that I am not proud of.

Enjoy reading!!!